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iN the isLAnd, i was adOPted by a FamiLy ngA wala'Y anaK...i wAs tHeir unIka.iHa...;p eVryThing waS verY muCh oKAy cOZ i Was abLe tO seE theiR proTected SunCTuarY en lEarn tO unDerstAnD tHEir wAy of Living...unTiL i cAlled eLla...mY cloSeneSs...sA iYA suN ngA numBEr...o.A jUD aU bUt i cRied jud afTEr sA amO conVErsaTion...y?!...kY i Can hear My BATCHmaTES hAving sO mUCh fUN...the eChoing nOIse rEAched my heArt en tHen i beGan to fiL so SkUL.siCk...i miS yA juD dAUn guYS...as in!!!
the neXt dAY a2 niya...i woKe up at 2 am en Went to tHe dAGat to sEe hOW fishermeN cATcH their fISh...sA bANgka jud kow nA.2g noh!!! 2gnaW pJud au...tHe fUNy thIng wAs...i rEmembErd eVeRy stARgazing ACtivity...en i Sed to mYSeLf....gMingaw juD koW niNu ky everYtyM i fiL cOLd sA STargAzing...nAa jud mO 2 kiP me wArm...;p
teaRs au...mAow nA xA...tHe entYr tYm ngA i wAs thEre...cGe juD koW unLi 2 kIp mySelF in.toUched niNu!!!!
amarDz!!!!amardz!!!amardz!!! but ThAt's hOW i riLi felT...
mishU guYS!!!



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LeAving mY fOoTpriNts...

Finally leaving UP High is so painful for me. I am not yet ready to let go of my Alma Mater that molded me for who I am right now. Though times have been tough for me, I could never forget all the teachings and learning that I have gathered throughout my four years of stay in UP.

I have been known as the “pasaway” in our batch. I always violate rules and regulations even to the simplest rule. It seems like its been a part of my system to do what I want to do in my own way up to the moment that I cross the line.

But, I have been noted also as one of the beauties of the batch. Many names have been linked to me and many people adore my physical beauty. I don’t know why but for me, I’ll take that as a compliment. Though many guys have liked me, not one of them even dared to court me because I am the niece of two faculty members, and they see me as a very “high standard” girl. I will leave it to them if they don’t like to know the deeper me (char!).

As I leave footprints in the prestigious State University of the Philippines, I want to be remembered as the lady who had very good leadership skills. I may not be on the top list of the honor roll, but I know that I have spearheaded lots of extra-curricular activities.

Also, I wanted to be remembered as the student who never got tired of reaching for her dreams. I want them to see me as an inspiration to never quit because as long as the sun rises, hope never looses.

Beauty for me to behold is such a great pleasure for not everyone is given that gift. I want them to remember me as the lady who may have the beauty but never holds back in any duty which is given to me. I always do and dare whatever I am tasked to do, no matter how creepy and eewww that may be.

Another thing, I want them to remember me that I was once that Stargazers’ President who had so much overnight activities. I never get tired of doing my job in letting them experience an overnight since I want them to explore the beauty of the heavenly bodies.

Debating should also be continued for we fought for it to survive and for it to start inside the premises of UP High.

I want them to remember me as the lady who is so active in all things and never gets tired of doing anything but still with high taste in fashion.

And finally, I want them to remember me as the girl who once shared all her laughter and tears in UP and finally came out strong. Her voice being heard by everyone and her will be done for the better good.

That’s how I want to be remembered. Not only through my good deeds but through my actions in inflicting change!

tHe LoOk...

The poem by Sara Teasdale, “The Look” is quite intriguing and very challenging. I can rally think of nothing at first, but when I tried to read it over and over again, I began to picture out what the poem’s impact was on me.

In the lines, “Strephon kissed me in the spring; Robin in the fall, But Colin only looked at me and never kissed at all.” I have felt that the lady in the poem has been through the arms of different guys. And every time she is with these guys, they all do the same thing. For her, men are all the same. For them to show that they love her, they would kiss her or make her feel the very same thing and eventually gets lost in the wind. But then, when she knew Colin, he was different. He’s not like any other guys. He respected her and for her being a woman, and did not took advantage of her. He just stood by her and loved her for who she is and never left her.

On next stanza, “Strephon's kiss was lost in jest, Robin's lost in play, But the kiss in Colin's eyes, Haunts me night and day.” I can feel that she has proved to herself that those guys that passed through her life were there just to be with her and not really loves her.

But Colin was different, he has showed a different kind of love that really struck her and really changed her life.

It is like in our lives, realistically speaking; sometimes we think that the guy who courts us and makes us feel special is automatically the right one. Without even having the chance of getting to know that person better and really figuring out if he is serious with you and if what he says is really the truth.

Sometimes, we think that he is really the one without even confirming it to our hearts. That’s one good lesson I have learned throughout my 16 years of existence here in this world, and that is to not easily be fooled by the sweet words that comes out of the guy’s mouth because sometimes, those words are spoken by the lips and not by heart.

We must not automatically be fooled by their sweet actions because they could always do that to anybody else.

There would always be someone who will come in to our lives and show us that they are different without doing what is the typical thing that other men do. That person is really who we are looking for. We just have to be patient enough in waiting for the right moment to come and be prepared of the possible things that would happen.

For sure, if Cupid’s bow is struck on you, you can’t help it but eventually fall. But if that time comes, just be sure that you are ready to handle the relationship since being committed to someone is not a game that you can play around with.

bEinG parT of tHe aDmiNisTraTiOn...

Ever since the beginning of the school days, our mentors have been with us to teach us lessons in the book and also about life. They became part of our lives and they have been good friends to us. We found second parents in them and they have been there to help us in our daily struggles, may it be school related or not.

As they say, experience is the best teacher. So, as the Know Your School Day is celebrated again by the students of UP High, we paid tribute to the mentors and gave them time to have a break and see for themselves how big their contributions are into our lives.

I wanted to have a high position for this year since every year; I get to explore the different positions that I like to have. This year is entirely a different experience for me since I got a position that I never thought I would be in. I have applied for the last minute, as the Students’ Affairs Adviser. Meaning, I took the job of Ma’am Ligaya Rabago Visaya.

I was not honestly sure what I was entering, all I know is that I want to have a different dish for the last time.

So, I was given the chance to read all the excuse letters of all the violators in UP High (including mine too) and found out for my self that I am not the only person who is on the boat of violations! Hahaha!!!

Also, ma’am let me stay in the Leader and rearrange the entire area and eventually beautify it. As I was there, I turned on the radio and had fun. Also, ma’am gave me a task and that is to list down all the students’ activities and achievements. Because ma’am gave me that thing to do, I was excused from the very tiring formation and very hot cleaning session (hahaha!!!).

At the end of the entire activity, I was able to realize that it is not that easy to maintain the Leader, sign the papers, read all the apology letters and implement to the students the school rules.

The very unforgettable experience I had while being on the position is that I was able to get out of the boring classes we had and I was able to sleep with the music and comfort and of course, relax! Hahaha! Rocking!!!

For sure, I won’t forget these experiences that I have and as I leave my alma mater, I will always carry in my heart the very wonderful moments we have shared with my mentors and my batch mates as well.

aS mEn eVoLveS...

The men in our lives give us inspirations, and of course they become part of our lives. But having an argument with them is another thing! What are the problems with men that piss us girls so much?!?

First thing’s first… men are so insensitive!

Imagine this… he knows that you like this and that and it is a very special day for you both, but, he never makes and effort to do something to make you happy on that day, we girls (I mean some of us) are not that materialistic and exerting an effort to make something special and worthwhile is enough for us. Also, if we really are so mad at them and we show them signs that we are mad, still they think that everything is okay not until you blow up and cry! Is exerting an effort really an insult in the ego for you guys?!

Next… men talk a lot!

They may just appear to be so understanding if you do something, but actually, they are just absorbing it in their heads and when they are just with the other boys, they really back-bite a lot! They talk about everything that they saw, feel, and heard. If you are on their forum and you are the tropic of the boys, I know that you will really lose your self-confidence after the entire conversation! Honest!
And then… men say promises so much that they can’t fulfill!

It hurts us girls every time you would promise to do something and eventually end up not fulfilling it because of a very unimportant matter or because you simply forget! Do you know how much it hurts us? It is because we really thought that we would be your priority. And eventually, we end up realizing that those promises of yours came from your lips and not from your heart!

There are times when… men tend to change us into someone we are not!

At the start of everything, they are so good in saying that they accept you for who you are and all those crap! But eventually, they will complain because you dress up this way and you say things this way and you think this way and you act this way… isn’t it annoying girls? I know that there are times that it is really our fault and you guys are just caring for us. But, over-doing it? It kills me!

And also... men can't express what they really feel!

They feel this way but still they hide it to themselves. We have been longing to hear those "sorry" and "thank you" and "You're special for me" to come out of their mouths but still they refuse to show what is deep in their hearts. Even though we girls sometimes get what you wnat to say, still we need to hear it from you, straight from your mouth.

Lastly… men tell you that they love you today and another I love you to other girls the very next day!!!!

Do you honestly believe that you are that good-looking that you could collect as much girls as you can? And take them all at the same time? I really think that you believe in yourself so much and you got to do some repairs in your brain! I really hate it when I know guys that play with the feelings of the girls. Who do you think you are? No matter how good-looking you are, you have no rights in doing that! Doing this is a perfect sign that you are not a man with honor and you don’t hold on to your loyalty. And it really pisses me off to think of such guys with that attitude!!!!

This blog entry really made me think… and as always, boys will always be boys!!!

gUrLs wiLl oLweiz be gUrLs...

When God created the world, He created not only the men nor women to exist; they were both created because such kinds would raise a diverse race.

I am a woman, I know my strengths and my weaknesses, and I know where I am good at and where I am so bad.

Even though I am also a woman, I can see and I can distinguish what are the problems of women like me that we can’t help because it is part of our personality.

The first thing is… we always wanted to feel that we are loved and we are special.

I think it is in the girl’s nature that she wanted to be appreciated. Why do you think us girls like to dress up and make ourselves pretty? It is because we wanted to be presentable and we want that the boys would appreciate how beautiful we are because it adds up to our confidence. And for those who are in a relationship, the girl would really make an effort to dress up herself well since she wants her man to be so proud that he is with her and she won’t turn out to be so insecure with every pretty woman that would pass by.

Also, we want to always feel that we are special for a person. It is a sense of assurance that somebody would be there for us no matter what happens and there’s a shoulder that we could lean on in times of trouble and despair.

Next thing is… we think too much!!!

I admit it; even I am guilty of this. I won’t say that I don’t do this because I actually do! And it always drives me crazy when I think of something related to my crush or someone who courts me or even just from a newly found friend! I am so conscious what would the guy think if I do this or if I do that… so, I would always end up so “praning!” over the simplest stuffs. And then, everything would just end up that the guy did not think nor felt that way as how I thought it would be! This is so applicable for the girls who have boyfriends! They think too much that if ever their guy is not by their side or even just delayed in replying her text messages, she would end up declaring a thousand world wars!!!!

And then… we want to be prioritized…

Imagine this situation, you set an appointment with your guy, and then, it just ended up cancelled because he forgot about it because he enjoyed playing computer games or basketball so much! Isn’t that nerve-wrecking and heart-trashing? Of course, who would want to be neglected right? Honestly, it is okay that sometimes we are not given much attention and that high priority, but doing it always is another thing! It hurts us!

On the other end… we sacrifice too much…

Ever been in a situation wherein you are hurt because he did something bad and never bothered to apologize and console with you? And still, you understood and always absorb it. Sometimes, we love someone so much that we just kept on understanding and tolerating them and what they are doing even if it hurts us so much. We don’t want to bring it up to avoid fights and arguments. And at the end, we end up crying in the night without his knowledge and we are hurt so much that it feels like our hearts are torn apart. As how they call it… the martyrs!

Also… we find it hard to easily let go and move on…

It just appears that we are okay after being hurt but honestly, we still think of it over and over again and it really bothers us. If a relationship just ended, or if a” could have been” relationship suddenly died out, we don’t move on right away and find someone new. It takes us such a long time to finally let go of the simple piece of hope in our hearts, hoping, praying and expecting that he would return or everything would go back the way it has been. That is why some of the girls can’t accept suitors right away because of course, there’s the sad reality that we still sadly expect.

And finally… if we love, we really love…

This principle may be good for some but not highly recommended for all. Of course, it is okay that we would love someone, but not to the extent that we give a hundred percent of our love to a guy. This is a very common scene for most girls who are in a relationship. The bad thing about this is when you give all of your love, you may be taken for granted by the guy that you love because he knows that you love him so much whatever wrong doing he does. Also, he may take advantage of that fact and play around with your feelings. Of course! We are women and we love… but it is not the issue. The issue is, we should love ourselves first and never forget to love ourselves even if someone would come into our lives.

Some may not be applicable to other girls, but, it is my prerogative to speak my mind… right?!?!

LawYer'S cOnferEnCe sPeEch...

People nowadays say, “The more laws and orders are made prominent, the more thieves and robbers there will be.” In some angle, I tend to believe what these people say, but deep in my heart I know that lawyers are made because they are to defend the lives of people.

Heroism, as how they define it, is the thought of being killed in trying to protect the country, or doing a significant deed for the betterment of the entire human race. Heroes are those domestic helpers that send dollars in the country, those who died in the battlefield in trying to defend our country and those cops, soldiers and other professions that dedicate their lives to save others. But haven’t you thought that we, lawyers are also heroes in the making?

We spend sleepless nights in trying to figure out how we could win our case just to save a framed-up killer, or the thought that we face the people of the Philippines for us to defend our innocent client inside the court room filled with people raging with anger.

In the matter of years alone, that we spend just studying the Philippine Constitution, memorizing the Bill of Rights, understanding the Republic Acts, and trying to read from cover to cover every book that is there that talks about law, isn’t it a sign of dedication? A trace of selflessness? And a basis for determination, passion and hard work?

Many people question the reputation of a lawyer for they say that a lawyer is liar. It may be true for some but not applicable to all. Because I still believe that the truth will surely set us free.

Once, I handled a case regarding a prostitute who is a rape victim in Subic, she was hurdled to death by American soldiers but luckily she still lived. Now, she wants to push her case to the court because she wants to find justice, and for her to become a role model for those people who are afraid to speak the truth. When I handled her case, everything was very crucial, the case, the victim, and me. I was offered to be paid 10 times bigger compared to how much my client pays me if only I would turn the case down, kill the issue, and just let the American soldier go.

I admit that my money was really a factor and it almost over-shown me, but I held unto my principle and turned the offer down. I continued the case and eventually won it.

That learning experience of mine really made me think that lawyers like us, our lives are also at stake. Every case that we win and we loose, someone will surely get hurt. In our case, we just have to fight for what we really believe is right and what is written under the Law of God.

Also, I have pondered that lawyers like us, are also good politicians! It is because, we learn how to think rationally, and we do not let our emotions fill our heads. Ever wonder why inside the senate there is always chaos? Because inside that room, there are good lawyers who lives by their principle and do not let money eat their entire personality.

For the young lawyers who are present right now, always remember that “It is fair to judge people and a stained window only in their best light.” And there would always come a point beyond which even justice is blind, but never let yourself be blinded too by this unfair judgment.

What everyone says may not always be the real verdict to what really happened. A small voice that will come from you will surely make a difference. Never neglect your capability to judge fairly because not everyone has this talent.

My fellow lawyers, let us live by our oath that the truth is what we will live by, and there may be an increasing numbers of criminals out there, as long as the good lawyers like us will remain and continuously do our job, those who have violated the law will surely find their place in prison, and for those innocent lives that were affected, they will surely find the justice that they seek.

Justice that we seek may not be easy to find nor attain, as long as justice, and only justice, shall be our motto, it will be soon be of our reach. For “Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere”.

Good day to you all.